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What I do is:
I worry about the impressions I'm gonna make.
On people when I'm with them,
I just feel like I'm gonna make a mistake
Mistakes don't even exist
It's just a miscommunication of intention.
But still my body resists,
When I've said something I feel I wasn't meant to.
People probably don't even see
When I feel I've fucked up and go all quiet.
But it seems they do to me,
So I shut my mouth until there's no longer a riot.
The riot that's within myself,
Can't stop it though I've tried so many times.
Turns out to just be thoughts
But why can I never really decide?
That's just up to me I guess
To make whatever decision feels best.
But I calculate everything
To a point where I have every pro and every con.
And on both sides, both choices... It all feels wrong.
Too many cons. unworthy pros.
If I do something for a reason
It's a reason that I know.
I worry about the impressions I'm gonna make.
On people when I'm with them,
I just feel like I'm gonna make a mistake
Mistakes don't even exist
It's just a miscommunication of intention.
But still my body resists,
When I've said something I feel I wasn't meant to.
People probably don't even see
When I feel I've fucked up and go all quiet.
But it seems they do to me,
So I shut my mouth until there's no longer a riot.
The riot that's within myself,
Can't stop it though I've tried so many times.
Turns out to just be thoughts
But why can I never really decide?
That's just up to me I guess
To make whatever decision feels best.
But I calculate everything
To a point where I have every pro and every con.
And on both sides, both choices... It all feels wrong.
Too many cons. unworthy pros.
If I do something for a reason
It's a reason that I know.
My thought process sucks when it comes to deciding things. I seem to take everything into account to the point where I realise everything that would be wrong about each choice and everything that would be right and end up concluding that neither is good and doing one for reasons I probably should, not.
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Wow... Really this was spot on. I know the feeling of saying something wrong well knowing it was a mistake. But I just don't realize it before it is too late. Then In go all quiet and if I am so foolish as to say something again then it's always worse than what I've already said.